i want to be exchanged for goods in the patchwork economy of your dreams
i want to put you into language so you mediate all meaning,
and for the world to unfold, leaving you naked as a metaphor
all symbols collapsed,
the order of things interrupted
and then once we meet,
just two dreams in the night,
we'll have nothing to lose
but ourselves in each other
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platforms & tunnels
lines broken by the dark
plumes of smoke rising heavy
from concrete cracks in crooked alleys
suspended, always only ever dazed & confused,
asking why are we here
where are we going
& what's our role in all this
pebbles falling down through grid-lined grates into the gutter
& your heart as it splits straight down through the middle
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when, once the dream is over & i'm left standing naked,
when the sky above becomes cryptic with the closing of the clouds,
when the world has fallen dark & forgotten again by love's golden light,
& my visions have failed, my empty wishes all come true
when the axe has fallen sharply & the lonely, broken end is at hand
that's when i'll wish i'd had you
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you only fall in love in little pockets of time
like when it's gotten dark outside,
or when it's gotten lonely
when the dew drops down like a soft satin sheet,
and the moon whispers serene about the sadness in the night
when everything is quiet,
and the whole world has fallen still
except for the anguish you hide inside your heart
i'm a millennial, i'm authentic, and i'm really, really nice
i can't drive and my car is bad
i wrote a manifesto on a post-it
i was younger then
when i go to the store i don't buy anything,
but i do like to see what's "out there"
it'll probably be bad if you give me some chances
i won't even need them but i'll take what i can get
i'm a cosmic liar, a real shithead, a bad person
i lie a lot and i'll let you down
at least i won't mean it
brief excerpt from email exchange "[Mountain of Interest...]"
my mailbox door was mostly stuck shut from the sheer volume of things inside. i hadn’t checked it for about 2 weeks. the contents were
-credit card
-NES bill
-student loan “thank you” letter, telling me “thank you for using corning credit union to fund your higher education. your student loan has entered repayment.”
-chart on “thank you” letter depicting a “mountain” of interest (~133% of original principal) accruing by 2024
-“phenomenology of spirit” - georg wilhelm friedrich hegel
-“kierkegaard: the construction of the aesthetic” - theodor adorno
-expired save-a-lot coupons
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a meme is a violent, abrupt reminder of the parts of your life that you'd rather forget
i hope you see a meme that reminds you of me
i hope it makes you laugh but feel really depressed
i hope the meme touches upon a cosmic reality & you feel very small
but also that you can give yourself over to something else completely,
an irrational, unsolicited act of passion
i hope that you "like" the meme
in the meme world, but also on the other side of the glass
& that even once the meme has disappeared for forever
you'll never forget the way it made you feel
a little less lonely, for a little while
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it was late, we were drunk & darkness had fallen
when we rode in the back of an uber together
i tried to kiss you, you covered my mouth
you said, "not right now"
& i'd never been so alone
i felt like the moon that followed us home
but somehow still less than myself
& as you counted your sheep in the seat next to me
i wanted to be one of them
rip prince
another celebrity should die today. there should be a celebrity who dies every day, until they have to start making really normal people famous for doing really average things. for going to lunch. for driving in their cars. for putting clothes onto their bodies. for looking at memes. everybody should hate it, should immediately realize how stupid it is - but they won't, they're too famous for that right now. they'll start making other people celebrities. it will be idol worship; it will be sacrifice. it will be democracy at its apex; everybody will be a celebrity, everybody will die. everybody except for me, because i'm better than them.