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i went to the doctor
the doctor said
i am clinically depressed
i said me too

using rational capacity to be really passive aggressive

i can't take pictures
or frame my shots
i can't write good
or form my thoughts
i can't do anything
but ruin everything
and even then i'm just okay

i wish i could take pictures
and knew how to write
and was good at everything
and always right

i should be more like you
you're so fucking great

sub-urban

a bridge rumbles overhead
   from a train rolling west
you can see it through your umbrella
   if you try
the signal blinks white
   we can walk
and fade deep into the
   ink-black of the city tonight
when the lights leave their stains
   on the windows, through the rain
i'll look through you instead
but you can't see me
     don't even try

i am going to win this breakup

i want you to ride in a plane that reminds you of me
when you hit a bump you'll wish we never met
when the captain talks you'll think i'm useless
i am everywhere
when you go to the bathroom you'll remember the time we went to the cafe
   i talked in a funny voice
   i wouldn't stop
   you felt like you were in a closet
when the attendant comes to take your trash
   you'll say "go fuck yourself" and want to keep it
   you'll give it to him anyway
i want the plane that reminds you of me to crash
   it will be bleak
   and despairing
   and "really passive aggressive"
   you'll wish we never met the whole way down
when everybody talks about it i'll pretend to be upset
then i'll go play laser tag

3 violent things i did to subvert the human condition

i threw a fistful of quarters at a taxicab
i was riding in an uber & told my driver
   "fuck the color yellow"
he didn't really care
at least he was honest

when i was at walmart i kicked some toys under the shelf
i was looking at a woman in white hair
   & she seemed really miserable
she should have rolled into a little ball
so at least i could have kicked her under the shelf

later i cooked some tater tots i found in the trash
i was thinking they looked really gross
   and that it would be funny to eat them
they were really gross, and i was glad
at least i can do something right

the_will_to_power.txt

i threw beer bottles at a flying saucer and disappeared forever
i was reading a lot of nietzsche
   and that girl i met on twitter was being a bitch
i tried to leave and she looked at me funny
i tried to kiss her and she yelled nietzsche was wrong
she was wrong
i’m going to disappear forever